The Bluest eyes....

"Bluest Eyes in Washington " just doesn't have the same ring, " The Bluest Eyes in Walla Walla" just sounds downright ridiculous.

Tomorrow she's getting the flowers, We'll see if she hates me as much as i dread. I know that probably she'll receive them and not say a damn thing. Not send any message my way. Fine, i'm not doing it for me. I just want the sadness and loneliness overstock to dwindle. Romance and Economic terms don't mix, i know.

Worst case scenario, an angry boyfriend calls me on the phone and tells me i'm dead. A best case scenario, i get note that says, "thank you, now drop dead" and i stay blocked...

I still wonder if she has my number blocked, i'm sure she does.

Run away, Run away from love....

A veces una cancion country toca en la radio, a veces uno la escucha , a veces le llega a uno, y a veces uno no puede hacer mas que sentirse misero y inquerible. Y cuando entro estea cancion solo pude pensar en ella. Y se que la proxima semana recibire una respuesta, o puede que una falta de respuesta que me ensordezca y me deja atonito en el piso, pensado que error mas grande he hecho de mi vida. Espero que ablande su carozon, pero soy realista. No hay razon por la cual alguien como ella me tenga en mente.

I choose you...

So walking in Bucklin Park with D was interesting. She met me there and I acted like mildly pleased, we were talking about her situation with work and how excited she was to work in McDonald's and how she wouldn't have to be a shelf raider anymore when her phone rang, her conversation was with a man who called her baby and was telling her to take care as she told him she was with her "friend" catching Pokemon....as she spoke, in my head i was thinking how it wasn't a surprise she had a boyfriend and that I should have known better. After she hangs up on him she tells me that she is going to drop him once he is finished with his school. "How nice." I thought, She is going to break his heart at an appropriate time. She then proceeds to tell me she can't wait to be single again. I shared all this stuff on messenger to H about how i was getting a hell of a mixed message, he said i should  just hit it and quit it. Like I could ever be that guy. Today in a pokemon raid, I saw her and just said hi briefly but she seemed to be busy with other people and i had to leave as the raid was not happening but she later told me in messenger that she was going to work that night. So I don't know if the seeing me in daylight effect has caused her to not be interested. It could be, I've always said that once i get seen in daylight shit ends. Anyway, I'm still a mess. I'm still thinking about that birthday present and sending it earlier in case she takes off for the weekend.